Have you ever gone through a long hard time, or strong physical pain or a bad illness, and then made it out on the other side, miraculously alive? When it happens, everything is more beautiful than it ever was before you suffered. Your body feels incredibly well. It is as through the sun has risen on a beautiful morning.
That is what this painting is about: the sun rising out of darkness. Joy rising out of sorrow. The freshness of a new beginning.
I thought a lot about the name of this picture. I wanted something about the sunrise, and something about renewal, and something about God. (Because this painting is also about God. Think of the joy of renewal on Easter morning.)
Then I was reading in the Bible and came across a reference to God as the "dayspring" and there it was: the perfect name. This is from Luke, Chapter 1, halfway thru verse 78: "...whereby the dayspring from on high hath visited us, to give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace."
Ironically for a picture about rebirth, this painting almost "died" as I was painting it. When I put the first layer on I was sure I had ruined it. I tried adding more color and blending but that didn't help.
As I have mentioned before, this has been a problem in the "Rainbows Promise Love" series. Everything starts out looking like it got run over a unicorn... and then I try to fix it.
I didn't want to paint black over it like I have done elsewhere, so I tried another tack: I scribbled over it with a grayish-white conte' crayon. (Not a wax crayon, more like an artist's chalk crayon.) But I still wasn't happy! At this point I really almost gave up on it... then I had the idea of trying just one more thing... I would make a sunrise.
And since it was a sunrise, I made the rose look like a sun, or like it was backlit by the rising sun:
This painting breaks my heart and lifts up my spirit at the same time. On the one hand, I think back on this year and it seems full of darkness and hardship. On the other hand, I feel like a phoenix rising from the ashes. Physically I still feel half-dead sometimes, but my mind is so ready to rebirth and renewal, and I know, I just KNOW that in the New Year I am going to really begin recovering my health, if I can just hold on to my purpose.
Have I managed to convey my feelings? I hope so. I hope this art inspires you to keep going, to face whatever battles you're facing with courage and joy, to spring forth into the future with love in your heart.