Some people say my art is too sentimental. I can't imagine why...
Oh wait LOL yes I can. This is one of my favorites, and it's definitely sentimental. (In a good way, I think.) But to my critics I say, there's a good reason for all this love and roses.
Let's talk about pain and suffering and despair.
That's right, I'm going there. Look at me. Don't I look happy, and young and healthy? Doesn't it look like I'm living the sweet life? Are you jealous yet??
Sometimes this picture is true. Sometimes I am really happy, and I feel good. I have a great dog, a great husband, a nice house, enough to eat, clothes to wear... a lot to be grateful for.
But other days it's more like this:
Yeah, that's a cute picture, but what it doesn't show is that I didn't sleep last night. I finally fell asleep at 6 AM and snatched a few hours of snoozing this morning. And for weeks I haven't slept well. My joints hurt and I'm tired. I'm probably writing this blog post on adrenaline, which is more or less how I live my life, and I JUST WANT ENOUGH ENERGY TO DO THE DISHES. I miss household chores, for crying out loud! I want a normal life, and I have a chronic disease, so I don't have a normal life.
I have bad days. And bad nights! I wonder why God is doing this to me. I wonder if this is ever going to end. I wonder what I've done to deserve this. I wonder how my husband can go on being so nice to me when I feel so mean. I wonder if I'm going to die young and childless. I wonder if I'm ever going to get my strength back, if I can ever go out dancing again, if I can ever paint large pictures again, if I can ever go hiking in Nature again.
And when I have bad days, and I can barely move, and I ache all over, and I look young but I feel really old... all I want in my life is beautiful things, and love.
Beauty is healing, and I need it.
Do you need it, too? Do you have bad days? Days when your tire goes flat in the pouring rain? Days when someone you love is gone and you're lonely? Days when you wonder why you're here? Stressed-out days? Tired days? Broke days? Worried days? Sick days?
Do you need beauty in your life? Do you need LOVE? If so, then my art is for you.
There, I said it. I feel much better now. Thanks for listening.